Irriation

Today was at the least an irriating day. You know those days when even the little things get on your nerves ... today was that day.

However, even though my day was clouded with irritation, I followed a personal goal I set for myself a few weeks ago to be honest even when it's hard and I did it. It was hard to finally let this person know how I was feeling about thier action, but I feel like we both understood what we were dicussing and the outcome was a good one for both parties.

Africa class was productive today, even though it was frustrating in parts. I can see how much I have matured from just this trip and I hope that this passion in me lasts even past these next few months.

I told this girl that I would look at her picture and always remember her beautiful smile and I do. I will always remember why I have a passion for the people of Zambia.

I see God doing a work in me through my prayer life and my faith in him and his eagerness to provide for me what I cannot.

Good night,

Jessica

No more supports.

If I have learned anything in the last week, it is that God may not have the same plan for you that you create for yourself. My plan was to be with Garrett for the rest of my life, and that is not happening.

Ironically, I was reading in the devotional book that Garrett gave me for my birthday and I think it speaks a lot of truth to my current situation:

"At certain times and places, God with build a mysterious wall around us. He will take away all the supports we customarily lean upon, and will remove our ordinary wall of doing things."

"We will be in a place where we don't know what is happening, where God is cutting the cloth of our lives by a new pattern, and thus where he causes us to look to Him."

"All they know is that god is holding them and that He is dealing in their lives."

Streams in the Desert by L.B Cowman: April 5th

I am not assuming that this means anything to anyone other than me. But I know it means the world to me. I don't have the normal person around me that I used to have in my life with me everyday. Garrett was my support, my strength and my go-to-guy. God wants to be that for me now, and when the time comes, God will send me a man that will chase after me like God intended.

Love.

Jessica

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Being awesome is Hard.

Studying for my test so that I remain an awesome college student is even harder.

You know what? College is hard. :)